This is so beautifully written and articulated Chloé. The paragraph about wanting love, to be held, and to be in love made me feel seen that I didn’t realize when I was moved to tears.
And only recently (2nd March) I turned 25 and ooh! I share the same sentiments you do with 24 and turning 25.
Happy birthday to you in advance. And I hope you get that kiss from your wish list! Ooh! What I’d give to have gotten a birthday kiss.
Your letters make being me easier. I used to think I was perpetual ache and desire. I was embarrassed by how much I wanted. Not just a partner, but for someone else's sunsets or thumbing a button on an inherited sweater. I retreat into my daydreams that are so extensive as a writer they deserve another title. Every ping of want, I am no longer here. I am elsewhere, somewhere where I am worth wanting.
Its 2023 but the march softness still resonates! Please be comforted by the fact that you have inspired multiple notes app entries and journal prompts, leading to halt in my busy mind. Thank you!!
“I don’t want to be naive, I want to be grown up and independent.” I don’t think I have ever related to a line this much before. Loved this and am already counting the days until April. XO
Wanting is so mortifying and time is so confusingly never-ending. And 25 is famously decades younger than 24. If you figure out how to be fluent in French without putting in effort, pls let me know. I’ve been trying to master the same thing for 5 years (just ask the duolingo owl whom I haven’t visited since mid 2017). Anyways. Love as always. Happy birth 💕
Chloééé you unintentionally put into words everything i have been feeling the last few weeks. i always look forward to your newsletters at the beginning of each month ☺️
Your allusion to Gatsby felt like a chilling moment of synchronicity, as I just finished reading The Great Gatsby for the second time (it was much better the second time - post high school). "My desire neither begins nor ends with a kiss" - Oh how this needs to be sung from the rooftops! Beautiful as always.
"In my bedroom after the pain subsided, I retreated to a daydream because it’s easier to let my imagined self have than to let my real self want." this month's newsletter hit very deeply Chloé. i don't think you understand how much these emails mean to me. happy birthday in advance or maybe i'm late <3
i am completely speechless. im a very new subscriber to your substack and was able to read this post today and i don't think i can thank you enough. for years I've felt the same way and it's so hard? to talk about it without feeling shame or guilt? and not only your writing makes me feel like reading a letter from a friend, but you articulate words so beautifully, it's so comforting. thank you so so much for allowing us to read this post and many others during october. sending you tons of love and a very late happy birthday.
i just read your march newsletter even though it's april and it was lovely, and i enjoyed your bday wishlist the most! i would love to read more lists about anything! so fun
Imagine being able to form thoughts this beautifully.
"I was not so brave to risk being understood." OOF! Your newsletter is the best part of my inbox.
This is so beautifully written and articulated Chloé. The paragraph about wanting love, to be held, and to be in love made me feel seen that I didn’t realize when I was moved to tears.
And only recently (2nd March) I turned 25 and ooh! I share the same sentiments you do with 24 and turning 25.
Happy birthday to you in advance. And I hope you get that kiss from your wish list! Ooh! What I’d give to have gotten a birthday kiss.
Xx
Your letters make being me easier. I used to think I was perpetual ache and desire. I was embarrassed by how much I wanted. Not just a partner, but for someone else's sunsets or thumbing a button on an inherited sweater. I retreat into my daydreams that are so extensive as a writer they deserve another title. Every ping of want, I am no longer here. I am elsewhere, somewhere where I am worth wanting.
Its 2023 but the march softness still resonates! Please be comforted by the fact that you have inspired multiple notes app entries and journal prompts, leading to halt in my busy mind. Thank you!!
This is so amazing & I related sm. Thank u for sharing omg
“I don’t want to be naive, I want to be grown up and independent.” I don’t think I have ever related to a line this much before. Loved this and am already counting the days until April. XO
Wanting is so mortifying and time is so confusingly never-ending. And 25 is famously decades younger than 24. If you figure out how to be fluent in French without putting in effort, pls let me know. I’ve been trying to master the same thing for 5 years (just ask the duolingo owl whom I haven’t visited since mid 2017). Anyways. Love as always. Happy birth 💕
Chloééé you unintentionally put into words everything i have been feeling the last few weeks. i always look forward to your newsletters at the beginning of each month ☺️
SO beautiful can’t wait to read your book
Your allusion to Gatsby felt like a chilling moment of synchronicity, as I just finished reading The Great Gatsby for the second time (it was much better the second time - post high school). "My desire neither begins nor ends with a kiss" - Oh how this needs to be sung from the rooftops! Beautiful as always.
"In my bedroom after the pain subsided, I retreated to a daydream because it’s easier to let my imagined self have than to let my real self want." this month's newsletter hit very deeply Chloé. i don't think you understand how much these emails mean to me. happy birthday in advance or maybe i'm late <3
i am completely speechless. im a very new subscriber to your substack and was able to read this post today and i don't think i can thank you enough. for years I've felt the same way and it's so hard? to talk about it without feeling shame or guilt? and not only your writing makes me feel like reading a letter from a friend, but you articulate words so beautifully, it's so comforting. thank you so so much for allowing us to read this post and many others during october. sending you tons of love and a very late happy birthday.
i just read your march newsletter even though it's april and it was lovely, and i enjoyed your bday wishlist the most! i would love to read more lists about anything! so fun
You write all the “right words exactly when I need to hear them”. So inspiring